tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74571852586733044672024-03-05T06:56:02.131-08:00My lifeWelcome to MY LIFE.Enjoy readings.Please leave any comment as u like.sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.comBlogger38125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-1063019867440458862009-06-11T07:52:00.000-07:002009-06-11T07:56:08.662-07:00Cannot sleep well........Recently i cannot sleep well...izit bcoz of the damn hot weather??? hmmm...not really....the actual fact is i miss him...bt bside this, i oso worried abt midterm and assignments...all seem come 2gehter, so i dun reli knw hw 2 tackle when prob comes.....at nite, i sleep a while then wake up, sleep a while then wake up...n often dream oso...make me dun hav a good sleep.....<br />well, i found something in my house, hope this aromatherapy can help me 2 hav a good nite sleep 2nite...sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-60329362919684569662009-05-05T06:47:00.000-07:002009-05-05T06:56:05.643-07:00Miss u vry vry much !!!<span style="font-size:85%;">Hmm.. wish 2 tel u i miss u vry vry much o....Last sat got phone chatting wit u bt bcoz u r drving n nid goin 2 taek so i hang up the phone...mayb i only talk wit u for 5 min, i stil feel vry happy o....i feel so nice 2 talk 2 u.... everytime talk 2 u sur will laugh de...hehe...talk 2 u make me feel im in a different world, just lik in world without worries n carefree...i miss u so much.............</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-15411287871068581272009-02-05T23:49:00.000-08:002009-02-06T00:14:53.045-08:00write wat ho ???Emm, long time din fill dis blog wit some event..bt duno wan write wat..nw got nting 2 do n vry lazy 2 do revision o anyting...well, i suppose i can try 2 write someting.....The only ting creept into my mind is him le, Ok, then, lets recall back someting abt him.........wher 2 start ho ?? emm...ok, lets start on hw i get 2 knw him.......<br /><br />I got a fren, named anneza, she is in form 2A class that time. She owes talked abt her classmate wit me, so i get to knw who r them lik ( hiroshi, hua kiong, chung yong, kiat seng and ching hui (him) ) They duno me ofcoz...then during form 3, kiat seng, anneza n me were in the same tuition centre..if im not wrong, in chinese class, i ord mixed wit those A class ppl just i din notice them o even mind 2 talk to them... Bt i owes c their gang during recess time n well, some of them seem pretty cool n handsome..hehe...<br /><br />Thing started 2 change during form 4 n form 5. I same class wit those guys i mentioned just nw n ofcoz ppl from other classes since we finished our PMR ord. Me seldom talk 2 them either. I owes got noticed him coz i feel he vry handsome..Got one time, after exam, teacher ask me 2 distibute the exam paper, since i stil not familiar wit the class, so it is a bit hard 4 me 2 distribute it to my classmate. Futhermore, it is recess time, nobody in the class, so i reli duno wat 2 do..N coincidentally, he was ther, so i asked him which exam paper belong 2 who lo..n he so kindly dat he said he help me 2 distibute...im so happy dat i got change 2 talk 2 him dat time..bt, i seldom talk de, so dun reli talk much wit him..<br /><br />Everyting started in form 5.. I wit my ex dat time,n sometimes if my ex wan sent any pic msg 4 me, he wil ask hui 2 help him. So, i get to knw hui hp no. One time, i duno y la, i just sms him..so from dat time onwards, we sms frequently...at 1st, only i not happy wit my ex, i baru wil sms him, bt after dat, he will sms me once in a while..then more frequent, one week omos a few days lik dat...sometimes after go out wit him, he will sms me dat nite n ask me fun ma n bla bla bla... ofcoz not only wit him, bt mayb wit my ex, wit classmate....<br /><br />duno y, wit him, i feel so comfortable n nice, feel vry xin fu.. bt wit my ex, i feel got pressure..haiz......i break up wit my ex oso got nting 2 do wit him..................................arrr....duno hw 2 cont anymor....there are someting i cannot write it out, sometng dat cnt decribe...someting dat will leave in my heart 4ever.......<br /><br />Duno wat im writing abt...wan knw ask me better la...haha...sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-35665191617320199702009-01-23T20:49:00.000-08:002009-01-23T20:55:11.258-08:00Damn boring !!So long din update my blog...duno wat 2 write....<br />Well, Chinese is coming soon, stil got one mor day 2 go...so fast...seem lik yest i just left sch, nw oredi 1 year i left liao...reli many things happen during dis one year...well, i just dun wanna recall it agn, let it pass.... in love matter, i still trapped inside even oredi pass 4 one year liao...so painful...<br />can anyone tell me when i can escape dis trap...when tink of it, my heart start to pain, tears start to roll down..................<br />duno y i so stubborn, oredi let go bt stil take it up 2 burden myself agn...nw wan let go is not an easy task..........................sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-80976664706395241352008-10-10T08:33:00.000-07:002008-10-10T08:41:41.731-07:00Y wan 2 torture me.....PLS let me go.. I cant stand it anymor...The game is just started..... After my 1st operation, i thought after i rest for a period of time n bcareful, everything wil run smoothly... bt it didnt... my leg didnt recover at all... it bcome even worse.. the tumour bcome bigger n aggresive.. .<br /><br />I duno im lucky o unlucky... the tumour is benign n wont spread 2 my other parts of the body, bt it ned time 2 totally get rid of it.. I really hope this is the last operation.. I mean it.. This is the last 1.. PLS!! i dun wan to play the game of life anymor... let me go pls.... dis tumour make me unable 2 cont my study... i feel frustrated of dat... i dun hav any confident 2 self study.. im not a genius...<br /><br />next week is my midterm, bt bcoz of the operation, i cant concentrate.. i really lost my mind oredi... i squeezed everyting 2gether... i wan 2 do as much ting as i can b4 my operation bcoz i dun wan alang alang... bt will it possible.. i dun hav much time.. i feel tired easily lately n i dun hav mood oso.. wat i suppose 2 do...<br /><br />haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....................................GOD!! PLS !!!sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-49238811329743479082008-09-16T07:58:00.001-07:002008-09-16T08:05:01.932-07:00Sorry o !!Dis saturday my college will organised a trip 2 camp permai. My frens owes force me 2 go. Bt i really cant because of my leg. I oso really hope 2 go since this is the 1st trip 2 go wit my collegemate n i can knw more abt my collegemate... Bt im not a healthy gal...my leg got prob, i cant really join their activities... They are goin 2 hav fun, n if i go, i can only c, n they will oso ned to take care n think of my sake. I dun wan 2 b lik dis...<br /><br />I cant go oso since my parents wont allow. Bcoz of my leg, i cant do anthing, it restrict my life n my movement. whn i c ppl walking normally n no illness, i really envy them. Maybe for most ppl, they wont care hw i walk, o wat happen 2 my leg, as long as it is not fatal... bt i do care...i do mind.... i so scared whn ppl look at me, look at hw i walk........ i........ i oredi duno wat can i do nw.........sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-15009612073004608132008-09-14T06:55:00.000-07:002008-09-14T07:21:58.763-07:00Mooncake festival14th September 2008...2day is a mooncake festival. First, i wan 2 say Happy MoonCake Festival 2 myself. Bt, im not happy after all. I oso didnt feel unhappy, it is more close 2 frustrated. This is hw i feel. Every years, im alone playing lantern o didnt play, i just c the kids playing happily 2gether n hear their laughing.. So happy, innocent and enjoy. Bt me.....LONELY dis word has haunted me for 18 years. I really envy those children. Sometimes, i do feel nice 2 be alone, bt my heart is not cooperate wit me. Whenever im enjoying the moment being alone, it make me think of sad things, my heart wan 2 tel me 'it' is crying inside.......bt y whn i put myself 2 cry, i cant cry, my tear wont fall....... izit bcoz im 2 frustrated oredi????????<br /><br />I really hope every festival 2 come.. bt whn dat day really arrive, i never really feel happy o enjoy it.... My smile n my happiness is all fake...... I owes keep telling myself im happy, im vry happy, bt y whn im in my room, i cant smile anymore............<br /><br />Im not happy for all the time izit?????? i duno...... i sometimes suspect myself got pyscho prob...... well, maybe......... dis year im vry li hai o...i didnt ask any 1 of myself 2 accompany me...i pass it all alone ALONE.........sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-20540384024485721492008-09-12T09:35:00.000-07:002008-09-12T09:55:13.181-07:00Insonmia2day is my final exam for 1st semester. The general biology paper is quite hard n i duno how to do while the Intro 2 biotech is still ok. This week i really get tired vry easily. n i oso dun hav mood to study at all. Everyday i went to college, studying and go out to eat wit frens. Althought my leg is vry painful bt i still look lik vry happy. One of my senior said dat im positive that althought i hav illness bt i still vry look vry happy lik nting happen.<br /><br />Ya, i admit dat coz im a happy go lucku person. I wont show my sadness 2 anyone. And i just keep in my heart. Bt in real, i do feel sad, scared and pain in my heart. Althought all my fren care 4 me bt i still knw dat im different from them. I cant walk properly n my leg owes pain. N nw it is swollen. Im vry scared.<br /><br />When i tell other ppl abt dis, they will console me and say is ok i cant walk properly, it is not a big deal compared to those really cacat. Bt, i cant really accept dis. Coz, i dun wan be tempang, coz im a gal...i everyday need to stand 4 my pain and i walk vry slowly oso. Even normal ppl walk oso not as slow as me. i dun wan 2 be different, so better say i dun wan anything happen 2 my leg.<br /><br />Last time, i dun hav fren dat ask me go out so i hav 2 stay at home. O i hav 2 ask them go out. Bt nw, i got fren dat will ask me go out and hav fun wit them. Bt wat can i say????? I can only say no coz i cant walk properly. My leg got problem. When c them go out happily i will feel umcomfortable. Im a gal dat nobody will notice me, im so 'pin fan' dat nobody will care 4 my apperance or dissapperance. Bt if my leg is ok, i dun mind 2 b the 1 dat nobody will care abt bt nw my leg got prob, this make me feel im not belong here after all............<br /><br />2day im so tired bt i still cant sleep bcoz of many unhappy things in my mind. I really hope 2 hav some1 who can listen 2 me n let me throw all my prob out.......bt i knw ther is no1 beside me anymore. The closet thing 4 me nw is my blog. I can cry whn i write my blog coz nobody will knw. I can bla a lot n it will not leave me or feel dat im troublesome. I oso no ned to fear dat it will get angry or disappointed. Blog oso will not judge me. Now, almost 1 am, bt im not sleepy at all, bt my heart fell vry 'sour' and pain.......sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-19519232599463331712008-08-30T08:57:00.000-07:002008-08-30T09:16:42.654-07:00Sorry...Im really sorryYest after i went to c Doc Lee, my mood not gud until now. Bcoz he said the thing in my leg bcome bigger n he afraid is tumour. So, he recommend us to ask opinion from A prof Pan from unimas. He is specialist in cancer n tumour. I knw it will be ok, coz the doc didnt say is something cancerous, he just say is invasive........so nting 2 b afraid of...bt im just 2 sensitive n think 2 much... B4 nwing the result, i wil cont 2 b sad n think negatively...<br /><br />Apart from dat, im sad bcoz my leg is pain. It restrict my movement, so i feel depressed. Whn i c the ppl of my age, can jump,play n walk properly like a normal ppl, i feel sad, coz im different..i cant even walk properly...im ni longer as active as b4... i cannot wear high heel shoes, i cannot drive, i cannot do sports and activities dat i lik........n think of dis i wan 2 cry...<br /><br />Since yest, i owes cry..coz i scared... mayb the thing wont b dat serious, every1 try 2 calm me down, bt i cannot control myself...i feel so depressed...bcoz of dis, i make bro kim unhappy..<br /><br />i knw he care 4 me alot.. he dun wan me sad...bt i just cant control myself 2 b not sad...after he knw, he bcome so depressed..i try 2 cheer him out, bt i fail 2 do so......i feel so sorry 2 him....... i duno wat i can do........<br /><br />Im really sorry...bcoz of me, he bcome so sad.......hope he will feel better 2mrw......i do wrong again.........haiz......sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-6403366958158009702008-08-24T07:28:00.000-07:002008-08-25T07:06:48.797-07:00Beijing Olimpik 2008 closing ceremony2day is the last day of olimpik. The time really past so fast...it seem lik only yesterday i watched the opening ceremony and now oredi close. Seem a bit pity. 2day food fair oso is the last day. But i didnt go...... This year i only go 2 times. 4 me la, dis year, everything seem past so quickly.......Duno y....<br /><br />2nite the closing ceremony is so amazing, the opening ceremony 2.........i lik the fuwa, so cute....2day i spent my time chatting chatting and chatting nia...i didnt do my assignment at all....haha.....Nvm, i still got time...<br /><br />N im trying 2 ask hui something, bt duno y 2nite, i hesitated.........haiz...........anyway i oso make an effort 2 ask him.......but sometimes i feel sad oso bcoz i knw dat he, bro kim n i, three ppl cannot b forever bro n sis..there is still a different between us...bt the most important is dat i afraid our friendship wont last...i duno wan 2 lost them........<br /><br />Am i thinking 2 much......haiz..who knws wat will happen in future....hehe.....sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-36323632604721112632008-08-21T08:16:00.000-07:002008-08-21T08:51:08.890-07:00Old classmates<span style="color:#3333ff;">Yesterday i went to watch movie with my old classmates. I feel nothing actually, neither i feel weird nor strange. Just feel normal. We went to watch Meet the Dave at 12.30 noon. Before i went to watch movie, i got class, and Ms Liew bring us out to do research. 1st we went to boulevard, but the hypermarket is closed, so we went to coldstorage, at there we really feel no face. I wont ever want go back to that mall again.. wonder y?????????? bcoz..................i dun wan 2 say.....................</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">Ok...........go back 2 our topic.........after watching movie, we went to Tun Jugah, Parkson and places near there...Cant remember well....We have so many ppl and we all separate out. I oso duno i wat i do the whole afternoon wasting my time fooling around with those classmate. I dun really called them as fren, bcoz, we dun really owes chat, or really care for each other.</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">Then at nite, i went to Food fair. At there, i Leave the group.....i wan 2 be on my own and enjoy 2 be alone in the food fair. 1st time 2 go alone n buy so many food. Ha Ha...........And 1st time i go enjoy the view of garden n sit there and talk with bro kim. Ha ha..Im so happy and enjoy..... I oso got the chance walk with Bro Hui to the garden there. Ha ah.............well, got 2 bro wit me at the same time, i shld feel happy..........</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">Bt yest i dun really feel happy.......when talk with them, i feel my life is so complicated. In such a short period of time, many things have happen 2 me.........i feel so......i duno hw i feel, bt do feel i have gone through a lot of things in such a short period of time......who will ever know..........What a bad life i hav.....but i never blame any1, i dint blame the God, i oredi tink as simple as possible, try 2 hav a simply life as possible..........i really tired of my life..............really tired...................Wow, write until here oredi wan cry...........I think im not gonna proceed..........goodnite!!</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-14425595081866320802008-08-14T07:46:00.000-07:002008-08-14T08:06:51.726-07:001 month in SedayaThis 1 month in Sedaya College really made me experience a lot of things. I get to knw many new friends and have a new prospect on life. Life seem different for me now because it is no longer same as in secondary school. We are like a big girls and boys there. No longer control by many strict rules.<br /><br />I every Thursday will go out to eat wit my frends and we are having so much fun. Once in a week, i have to help college doing things oso bcoz i got apply for schlarship. N it is really fun when do it with many ppl. We oso very bsy doing assignment and experiments bt i no longer feel as stress as i in secondary school bcoz of exam. Dat time im the top student, i cannot lose even for 1 time, i really feel so much stress. Nw, i finally free coz i only compete wit myself. Well, there is also time i feel sad n depressed bcoz of a guy in my DBT class. He is so disturband and lik to disturb me. He oso lik 2 stick 2 me n i really scared of him. Im not gonna talk much abt dis guy and make my blog full of his bad things.<br /><br />I oso have a new bro. At 1st, i never talk to him, only after recently we chat very often. He is nice and kind. We hav a lot of things in comman n i feel great ti hav him as my fren n bro. I wan tel him, 'welcome to my world' , bcoz i closed my world 2 any1 b4, nw im trying to open it to everyone. Maybe i cant really do it, bt i knw, Bui,Hui, Kim, Yimo, SWL, and LYY will knw my world very well. Bt bcoz some of them r my formal classmate, n we long time no c n keep in touch, there is a feeling of strange oredi.<br /><br />2day im not very happy. Y ??? well, i dun wanna to mention. i really hope got some1 bside me, i just think 2 much. Nobody will be bside nw........ im all alone 2 cope wit everything. I wan cry,i wan tell the world hw cool my heart r nw, hw empty inside, bcoz nobody gonna knw hw hapi im in college. Hw lonely im, hw depressed im...........Mayb i dun seem unhappy, bt my heart told me to cry............ n i really cry.....hw stupid im...........Dun cry......<br /><br />Ned 2 calm down, so hav 2 leave.......sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-84945849983799337042008-08-09T03:10:00.000-07:002008-08-09T03:15:09.981-07:00Big Big WorldI’m a big big girl in a big big world <span style="color:#33cc00;">It’s not a big big thing if you leave me</span> But I do do feel that I too too will miss you <span style="color:#00cccc;">much miss you much</span>…I <span style="color:#ffff33;">can see the first leaf falling it’s all yellow</span> and nice It’s so very cold outside like the way I’m feeling inside <span style="color:#3333ff;">I’m a big big girl in a big big world</span> It’s not a big big thing if you leave me <span style="color:#993399;">But I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much</span>…<span style="color:#ff0000;">Outside it’s now raining and tears are falling from my eyes</span> Why did it have to happen why did it all have to end I’m a big big girl in a big big world <span style="color:#ff99ff;">It’s not a big big thing if you leave</span> <span style="color:#ff99ff;">me </span>But I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much…<span style="color:#ffff00;">I have your arms around me warm like</span> <span style="color:#ffff00;">fire</span> But when I open my eyes you’re gone…<span style="color:#330099;">I’m a big big girl in a big big world</span> It’s not a big big thing if you leave me <span style="color:#009900;">But I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-46823937882109671912008-08-07T07:38:00.000-07:002008-08-07T07:48:39.651-07:00Chinese Valentine's day<span style="color:#009900;">2day is chinese valentine's day. Everyday 2day it will be raining bcoz of the couple who will only met once a year, so they feel sad n miss each other, so they cry....dat is wat my frend said...</span><br /><span style="color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="color:#009900;">well, i owes wanna find those two stars in the sky, bt it is cloudy, so cannot c.....haiz.... I duno wat 2 say, but i oso feel lik got a feeling inside my heart dat i wan 2 express it out...just simply duno hw...</span><br /><span style="color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="color:#009900;">A feeling of miss n love fill up my heart..... Loneliness,n happiness, sadness all are in my heart...n oso tiredness.... ha ha....</span><br /><span style="color:#009900;"></span><br /><span style="color:#009900;">Mayb i will cont whn im not tired n ready to write............. or just leave it ........haha</span><br /><span style="color:#009900;"></span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-85029136752378496362008-08-05T07:45:00.000-07:002008-08-05T07:57:11.181-07:00What the hell with me ????????????<span style="color:#00cccc;">Talking about luv life shld not be involve in my life nw, bt i really miss something dat i ever gone through...Nw, everynight im watching a drama, n the couple inside ther make me think of many things. N the touching luv story from the goodybook make me more appreaciate wat i ever gone through. Bt i still hav 2 confess that i dun knw wat my heart wan, i only knw dat it is vry nice to be luv...I duno who i luv, i duno who i can luv, i oso duno y i wan 2 b in luv.............</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">Bt watching that drama something make me think of myself, i do feel heartache, and i feel the miss.......i hope 2 b with him........... i ned him........ bt i cannot do that........... i wan break up 1st, i luv other guy, im the 1 who r guilty and i cannot forgive myself.........</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">I duno wat shld i do............. izit true wat the book said? i hav depressent??? ...................... i realy duno...........i think i ned a psyco......</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-66689998568504565132008-08-02T07:20:00.000-07:002008-08-02T07:40:00.880-07:00A wonderful day<span style="color:#cc33cc;">Since i started my college life, im so bsy..even saturday and sunday oso need to do assignment.Althought we were given 1 week time,bt if i dun finish it 1st, later my workload will be getting more and more.Ok, lets forget abt it,lets talk about my wonderful day.</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">This morning i woke up and watched tv.I watched 'The Dread Dracula and....' i 4get the tittle..well,anyway,it is a nice movie. Then, i went to bath n had my lunch. Then, i went to do my assignment until my student came. I taught her for about 2 hours then i watched tv an read story. It is really a touching love story for me. I havent finish reading it because my dad want to bring me out. I wan to go boulevard, bt ther was a function goin on, so crowded, so i didnt manage to go.Then, i went 2 pc fair. It is so crowded oso..i hav to climb up n down the stair case.Haiz..my legs really tired...I saw my neighbour selling pc accessories at ther n a few familiar faces,bt didnt c those i wan 2 met.When i was abt to go back,my parents saw their old friends and me oso saw my friend Lian Kiat n his friends. He seem fatter..ha ha...sori to say dat...dun be angry..</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">At ther i oso can c firework, mayb is from the Kuching Fest...so beautiful, and tonight is so windy, the view ther oso are nice. I feel relax and enjoy. Just lik living in another world. I suddenly feel lik flying, very freedom and happy. Well, if got my love one with me, even nice. Bt, is nice oso to be alone. 2nite the city was so merrier...I really hope the time will stay ther, at that minute and stay at that second longer...I guess i knw wher i will go next time if im unhappy...So, my friends,do u knw wher to find me when im sad or angry..yea,taman kereta...ha ha...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">Now happy time is past..ned to go back to my normal life, stop dreaming n keep working...i still hav a lot of assignment to do..im so lazy.......bt wat to do...</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-50902548675447450632008-07-27T01:58:00.000-07:002008-07-27T02:07:59.457-07:00A road lead to anotherBefore i choose to go UCSI,my choice is Swinburne.So,if i dun go 2 Sedaya,2mrw i will be goin to Swinburne studying foundation.I keep wondering wat my life will be if i go swin???wat if i dun go 2 sedaya open day at the 1st place???Wat wil happen if i choose 2 go swin??Wil it better than nw??<br /><br />WEll,one road lead to another.If i go swin 2mrw,then i will not knw how my life will me at sadaya.Nw im at sadaya,so i will never knw wat will happen to me in swin.There are so many road to choose from,n we never knw wat will happen 2 us if we choose the road we didnt choose in the 1st place.Good or bad we oso duno.<br /><br />Will i happier or feel more enjoy??will i........there r so many unsolve Q in my mind.Well,im just thinking 2 much.2mrw i will be goin to sedaya 2 study my biotech..............No choice anymore...good or bad,regret or not,i still hav 2 cont my road till it finish coz it is a one way street no U-turn.sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-51635261134420993892008-07-21T07:44:00.000-07:002008-07-21T07:53:25.061-07:00Feeling lostNw im studying at UCSI for abt one week.N i feel the course that i take is hard for me.I dun like bio,nt 2 say dun lik,it is the subj dat is hard to study.If nw im doing it with my formal classmate,well,maybe it will be stress 4 me bt i think at least im nt alone in the track.Nw,my class only 3 ppl,one of it transfer to swinburne,n im not really knw them well, n maybe i still could not adapt to the atmosphere there or maybe......<br />In short,im feeling im just alone going through this process.I feel dat im alone going to fight witout anyone guiding me or with me whn i ned someone wit me.I will be sad of going choosing this road n hard 4 me to going through,bt until i still havent really regret,i hope i wont regret in the future too.....<br />Last time i got my friends,Ah Bui and Hui wit me going through a process like exam n study bt nw im leaving alone.I duno which of the guy will be with me going through this road,bt i really hope both of them be with me whenever i need them...im really tired..i afraid i cannot gone through it......I must tell myself i hav to...sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-44797660283223361832008-07-19T06:55:00.000-07:002008-07-19T07:05:42.654-07:00Life in UCSI<span style="color:#3366ff;">So fast,i already study at UCSI 4 1 week.Well,my biotech class only got 3 gals n 1 boy.Life at there is ok,not so crowded and the teachers r nice.The only thing that make me feel dizzy is the subjects dat i study.I study general bio and intro 2 biotech 4 dis 2 mths semester.I really duno wat the lecturers r talking abt.I once r top student in school nw i will become the last student liao...uwahhhh.....</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">I oso have made friends with my classmate,mayb we still duno each other well,bt i hope time can make us become good friends and i can hav more friends.Im so bsy lately,teaching tuition,study and doing assignment.But i think it is more meaningful then after my operation.</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">Ok la,ned to do my assignment.........Ohya,1 more thing,last nite i chat with 007,n he really make me feel much relax.THx 007............</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-22977855742917656482008-07-14T02:41:00.000-07:002008-07-14T02:52:09.309-07:00Happy Birhtday !!!!!!!!!!<span style="color:#3333ff;">2day is my birthday.Im old lo,18 years old..he he...oredi grown up,but just my age la,my thinking still nt so mature la...he he...Anyway,im happy wit myself nw,so no ned to change much just bcoz of my age.</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">This morning i went 2 UCSI college.We had orientation around 9am n finished around 10am.My biotech class got 3 person n all r girls.Actually there r 4,another 1 is a guy,but thrn he said he dun wan study anymore.He is from Swimburne n has finished his foundation course.He wan 2 study biotech so change to UCSI.But after listen 2 wat The principle said,he decided 2 go back to Swinburne n finished his degree.After the orientation,we got talk 4 about an hour,he seem odd 4 me...well,i still nt familiar in there,so feel all of them r weird.</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">Just nw,my dad bought me a mango cheese cake,mee,chicken n veg 2 celebrate my birthday wit my own family.My birthday wish is 2 get rich $$$$$..ha ha....ok,nw is my new start...4om 2mrw onwards,i will b goin 2 start my lesson,but my leg make me feel im diff from my collegemate.2day,i feel pain when i walk,i cant even step on it....haizzz....</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-18649146888368958752008-07-13T07:29:00.000-07:002008-07-13T07:56:15.986-07:00A new life<span style="color:#ffcc00;">2nite my dad and all my aunt celebrated birthday wit me at BDC (皇上皇〕。Well,i celebrate it early bcoz everyone is free tonite and 2mrw i will b going 2 sch.My 1st day to UCSI.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc00;">Well,im going 2 make a brief summary before my real birthday and my new life begin.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#003300;">Mon (7/7)</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">Well,as normal,i watched tv,online,playing games n chatting.Ah meow still wit me dat time,so i played wit him.Until dat nite,Ah bui came 2 bring me 2 Intelligent Tuition Centre to met Janet as she wan giv me thing to prepare 4 my tuition class.</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333300;">Tues(8/7)</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">No ned to mention those normal routines la,everyday is the same.At night i went to Intelligent to start my 1st class of teaching english. Maybe im new,so the students dun dare to be naughty.There are 3 of them-2boys,1 gals and 1 absent.I knw they r vry naughty n noisy by their look,just they afraid to show it since they nt familiar to me.Maybe few days later,they will show me their 'real face'.And 2day oso ah meow has left me when ah bui bring me to Tuition centre,he took it away.I so sad.</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#003300;">Wed(9/7)</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">Still the same,as usual.Days time usually is the same 4 me everyday.At night if im not watching tv or online,then im teaching my cousin tuition Mandarin.So,i taught him 4 abt 2 hours,i really tired to teach sometimes,but it is my dream 2b a teacher-tuition teacher.2day i still mis my ah meow a lot.</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#003300;">Thurs(10/7)</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">Times really past very quickly,when i online n play games,i never knw how much time has run away.After play game,i giv tuition 2 a kindy 3 gal,she is nt so clever,so nt easy to teach.i really angry wit her sometimes till i pull her ear gently.But still not effect 4 her.She is quite slow in learning.Then i went out 2 hav a drink wit Jonathon-my tuitionmate.He bring me there n home.We had our drink at Kaya n Toast.Well,he is quite a nice guy,im glad 2 hav a friend lik him.I hope 2 hav more dis kind of friends.I never 4get abt my ah meow.</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#003300;">Fri (11/7)</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">Nting special,still dull n same.At night i dun giv tuition bcoz my cousin change it to Sunday since he is having his exam on Monday.So,i just watched tv n online.</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#003333;">Sat(12/7)</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">I woke up early in the morning and start to play game again.Until about 12 something i giv myself sometime to relax b4 my kindy 3 gal come 4 tuition.Then i watched smallville.Then,i went out.I didi went to satok sugarbun to eat spaggeti.So full....</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;">Ok,and then 2day,bla bla bla...oredi mention...n nw is my time to sleep since 2mrw ned to sch liao..rest 4 so long,finally returned 2 sch....So lazy...Nighty nighty...</span><br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-60834028870069443022008-07-12T07:37:00.000-07:002008-07-12T07:48:01.859-07:00Just write for fun<span style="color:#6600cc;">Tonight i dunno wat 2 write in my blog,but i feel wan to write something.Only got 2 days left before my birthday and oso my school day.This is really a long holiday for me,n a lot of things happen during my long long holidays.All sweet,sour,bitter n spicy taste memories happen during dis holidays.</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Starting after my SPM,1st time i went to work,1st time 2 realise my dream as a teacher,1st time went to Sabah,1st time went for xray n doing MRI,1st time went for operation,1st time use wheelchair,learn how to walk,1st time learn driving and pass my lisence test,n oso quarrel wit my family 4 a few times,break up wit bf and 1st time talk 2 my family abt my problems.</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">Well,everything got it 1st time,but i hope some of the event will only happen for one time bcoz 1 time is oredi enough 4 me..hope some of it will ne the 1st n last time dat i face....</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-76129345989707321302008-07-08T19:58:00.000-07:002008-07-08T20:14:08.421-07:00Fear....Scare.....Confused....Sad<span style="color:#ffcc33;">My Ah Meow has gone.My ex has taken it.I really mis him very much dat i will cry over it.Well,maybe it sound funny to cry over a cat,but i really sayang it,dats y i will feel sad and tak sanggup tinggalkan dia.but wat 2 do,he hav to go.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;">My ex and i always 纠缠不清,i really hope it will be over,but then now ah meow is wit him,i think is hard for me to clear our relationship.Haiz...Hope time can change everything.I dun wan ppl misundstand dat we still couple,dats all.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;">Dat day i went to consult the doc again and he said dat i can do most of the things dat normal ppl can do.I just cannot carry heavy load,run,jump or any sport activities.I feel glad to hear it.But today,i feel the pain on my angkle when walk or move it.I really scared because yest i wan to prevent my grandma from falling down so i went to suuport her n put too much effor on my leg.I really scared.i dun dare to let my family know abt it.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;">My other leg too got prob since early.I got tel my family once.but then maybe they hav forgotten.Nw i too scared to face it after my operation.I dun dare to remind my family again.I scared to c the doc again.I dun wan to hear any more bad news abt my leg again.I dun wan to bcome cacat.The feeling is too horrible.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;">Since small,i hav a weak body,i really duno hw to cont my life if i ned to face illness for the rest of my life..............</span>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-79858315094852524912008-07-07T20:31:00.000-07:002008-07-07T20:38:47.653-07:00First NightYesterday night was my first night go into my bedroom to sleep after my operation.It is already about 5 months i sleep in the living room,i really dun get used to it when go upstair.I look into my bedroom n the surrounding,i dun really feel familiar wit it,duno y.<br /><br />I lie on my bed n start thinking of my Kitten dat will leave me.I feel sad....WELL,im just too sentimental and sensitive...But,i really x sanggup tinggalkan anak kucing tu.Haiz,wat to do..It is too noisy and naughty.My mum always complain.<br /><br />After dat,i think of my bro.Because i know dat when i face a situation like dis,he sure can calm me down.But,now he no longer help me get out of this.I hav to face it myself.Haiz....well,i guess dats all i wan to say,nw i gonna c my Ah Meow.................sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457185258673304467.post-69686382866191668372008-07-07T07:39:00.000-07:002008-12-11T01:16:51.411-08:00Hard to Say GooDbYe<div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYS49pF-Yd_pW_bw4SbbHrf7Y9oEyFtixeIRYcll9WSCJsD6AmaEBSfnX767B3JAnExPQGmxYxiAjeqgYw5ghyphenhyphenSLW_u5fShjOU4GkIhkjUf8jcbziwXAneswYjyBpL_duG8AXyy76oqKE/s1600-h/cat.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5220287439022711602" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYS49pF-Yd_pW_bw4SbbHrf7Y9oEyFtixeIRYcll9WSCJsD6AmaEBSfnX767B3JAnExPQGmxYxiAjeqgYw5ghyphenhyphenSLW_u5fShjOU4GkIhkjUf8jcbziwXAneswYjyBpL_duG8AXyy76oqKE/s320/cat.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#3333ff;">Yesterday i saw dat guy again at Tun Jugah.Well,i duno who he is,but he seem familiar to me.He is indeed my Schoolmate, i think.The first time i saw him was at Sarawak Plaza,he was having a drink wit his friends,i suppose.Then,the second time i saw him was on the busy street near BDC.My dad drove through there and i accidentally saw him walking with his friends,if im not mistaken.I duno it is a coincidence or wat.I just know dat i never met a guy for many times in just a short period of time.Even my friends i never met them.well,lets forget about it,2day my topics is about a new comer-a KITTEN.</span></div><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></div><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#3333ff;">Last week,a black n white kitten came to my house.Since,it is small,no mother with it and hide in my backyard,so we kept it.It likes to meow,probably finding his mum or when he hungry,so i called it 'AH MEOW'.It is so cute,naughty and playful.It will climb tree,play ball,and chase insects.The ways he act really attract me and i like it so much especially when he run here n there.</span></div><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></div><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#3333ff;">Ah meow is very clean oso.He know where to go when he needs to go'toilet'.I still remember when he first come,he so afraid of us,when he saw us,he will run into his hiding place.Nw,my grandpa so sayang it,n me too.We give him eat 4 times a day,bath once a week,n play with it.He oso no longer afraid of us.N always tried to sneak into my house.He is sooooooooooooooo CUTE that i like it soooooooooooooooo MUCh.But,my mum dun like it because my nose is sensitive wit fur,and she afraid the cat's fur will fly everywhere in the house.So,wat to do,giv to ppl lo.</span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrDIU-_1qmPYMhDUDPafdHDCsKajzcD7mYMw5xEHKhKhLMQQLnXYTdRu7celxrLIEMVBmxHo8GvBUwq8sDOwGWVhE2qorTfTG0dLNeE-36NFYr7LDf9XJvl1iiVXP_SQk53xjBjIBTN5M/s1600-h/cute+kitty.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5220287780289524130" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrDIU-_1qmPYMhDUDPafdHDCsKajzcD7mYMw5xEHKhKhLMQQLnXYTdRu7celxrLIEMVBmxHo8GvBUwq8sDOwGWVhE2qorTfTG0dLNeE-36NFYr7LDf9XJvl1iiVXP_SQk53xjBjIBTN5M/s320/cute+kitty.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><span style="color:#3333ff;">I plan to giv to my ex.Well,i dun trust he will take good care of it.But,that is the only choice i got.At least i can know Ah meow 's condition and ensure that it got freedom.If giv to my relativ,sur he will be locked and oso wit dogs around.If throw it sumwhere else,i afraid he will be torture and cant eat or sleep well or maybe being bully by other cats.Haiz,i really duno who can take good care of it.I know my ex wont,i dun trust him after all,but wat to do.I really worry about my kitten if i giv to him.I oso dun wan to separate wit my kitten.Haiz...............I cant say goodbye to it.I goona mis him so much.Oh..my'ah meow'...i wan spend time wit it before it gone..........i sure will mis his voice..meow meow meow.......</span></div></div>sakurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09114704123748203803noreply@blogger.com0