Find A way back Into LOVE

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past,i just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

just in case i ever need them again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corner of my mind

All i wanna do is find a way back into into Love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but i just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could see some direction

And i'm open to your suggestion

All i wanna do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if i open my heart again

I guess i'm hoping you will be there in the end

There are moments when i don't know if it's real

Or if anybody feels the way i feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation

All i wanna do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if i open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that i'll be there for you in the end

一场游戏一场梦

不要谈什么分离 我不会因为这样而哭泣 那只是昨夜的一场梦而已
不要说愿不愿意 我不会因为这样而在意 那只是昨夜的一场游戏
那只是一场游戏一场梦 虽然你影子还出现我眼里 在我的歌声中
早已没有你 那只是一场有戏一场梦 不要把残缺的爱留在这里
在两个人的世界里 不该有你 喔 为什么道别你 又说什么在一起
如今虽然没有你 我还是我自己 说什么此情永不渝 说什么我爱你
如今依然没有你 我还是我自己

Oouch....My Heart

For about several months i didnt chat with my brother.I do hope to talk to him keep in touch with him.Finally last Wednesday i got the chance to sms with him,im so happy.I really hope we can be friend once more.He really can cheer me up and let me forget all my problems.After talking wit him i feel relax and my whole body become very light.The feel is really good.I know he wont care wat ever happen,but i hope i can tell him in my heart he will forever be my brother.Since i alwys call him brother that mean i never think of anything that shldnt be happen.Ya,i ever say i got feel with him,but i just want to keep it in my far end of my heart.But,will he ever know this???

And for my ex,well he is a person whom i can trust and tell him my problems.We still got keep in touch wit each other.Last night he asked me why we cant be together,i really dont know what should i say.I can feel the pain in my heart,very painful,i can feel the miss,but i just duno why i dont want to accept him anymore.i do feel heartache,i oso dont know why.My heart and my brain give me different signal.Im very rasional,but my heart seem already split into two part,one for my bro n one for my ex,dats why i cannot choose.Maybe i shldnt involve in love at the moment.

My condition now just like in a mandarin song that sound lik this:心里有话想说，心里的痛很痛。。。。。。

Swinburne vs UCSI

Choices,choices,choices...........everyday i have to make choices,im almost crazy about it.But today,i dont have to think anymore,everything is solve,want or dun want,the thing cannot be returned anymore.
At first,im thinking which college to go.Now no ned lo.Ya,it cant be denied that Swinburne is better than UCSI,i also like Swinburne more than UCSI,but after thinking from many aspect i finally choose UCSI.This is because my father like me to study diploma in biotechnology,it is cheaper,more choices to complete my degree and shorter time.While,Swimburne,it is costly,longer time,n less choices 4 me to complete my degree.Besides that,my condition now is not suitable to go swimburne that has a lot of people.
If go to UCSI,i can complete my degree in KL or Australia with more college to choose.And,i can complete my degree in just 1 year,that mean i only study for 3 and half year then im a degree holder.I also can proceed to Master with a younger age.Meanwhile in Swimburne,i can complete my foundation here,then continue 1 year of degree then one the second year transfer to Swimburne in Australia.That mean i cant choose another college and it take 4 years or longer for biotechnology.But if go aus,i can pay malaysia fee in Swinburne,but not UCSI.
I like swinburne much more than UCSI,but i dun hav jodoh with Swin so i hav to let it go.Hope i can start my new life in UCSI.

SALE,SALE,SALE,everywhere sale

It has been along time i didnt go out because i cannot walk.Now,i can walk a bit,but not like normal people that natural la,and sometime feel hard to walk.Last time,walking is easy,now is hard for me.So pity!!!Ok,since i know i can start to walk,i began to go SHOPPING.Now,every thing increase in prices like rice and oil,people life become more difficult now,but i spent more than before just to go shopping.
I go from one shopping mall to another during that few days of holidays.I walked for hours and hours.Well,i do hope my leg wont have too much pressure.I went to BOULEVARD and THE SPRING to buy clothes.Even though got discount,10%,20%,50%,but the the clothes there are still expensive because all are branded like Nicole,Diesel,Rock,Vios,Emilio and more......The cloth there are so beautiful and ofcoz the price also very 'beautiful'.Heh heh....Despite of the price,i still buy a few clothes.one jacket RM99,one skirt RM99,one tshirt,RM80,ONe jean RM150,one spectacle with coloured lens RM250........This is the type of clothes that i used to buy,and until today i still havent finished buying.I duno RM1000 enough for me to spend in one day or not.I plan to go shopping again tomorrow and next week.he he
Wow,now economic not good ah,my dad work and need to feed 5 people,and my college fee oso.Hey girl,dont spend too much,u know how hard to earn money,dont be a spendthrift.Now,buy rice also need to think carefully,dont spend the money on branded clothes anymore.Learn how to save.THINK BEFORE U SPEND.