A road lead to another

Before i choose to go UCSI,my choice is Swinburne.So,if i dun go 2 Sedaya,2mrw i will be goin to Swinburne studying foundation.I keep wondering wat my life will be if i go swin???wat if i dun go 2 sedaya open day at the 1st place???Wat wil happen if i choose 2 go swin??Wil it better than nw??

WEll,one road lead to another.If i go swin 2mrw,then i will not knw how my life will me at sadaya.Nw im at sadaya,so i will never knw wat will happen to me in swin.There are so many road to choose from,n we never knw wat will happen 2 us if we choose the road we didnt choose in the 1st place.Good or bad we oso duno.

Will i happier or feel more enjoy??will i........there r so many unsolve Q in my mind.Well,im just thinking 2 much.2mrw i will be goin to sedaya 2 study my biotech..............No choice anymore...good or bad,regret or not,i still hav 2 cont my road till it finish coz it is a one way street no U-turn.

Feeling lost

Nw im studying at UCSI for abt one week.N i feel the course that i take is hard for me.I dun like bio,nt 2 say dun lik,it is the subj dat is hard to study.If nw im doing it with my formal classmate,well,maybe it will be stress 4 me bt i think at least im nt alone in the track.Nw,my class only 3 ppl,one of it transfer to swinburne,n im not really knw them well, n maybe i still could not adapt to the atmosphere there or maybe......
In short,im feeling im just alone going through this process.I feel dat im alone going to fight witout anyone guiding me or with me whn i ned someone wit me.I will be sad of going choosing this road n hard 4 me to going through,bt until i still havent really regret,i hope i wont regret in the future too.....
Last time i got my friends,Ah Bui and Hui wit me going through a process like exam n study bt nw im leaving alone.I duno which of the guy will be with me going through this road,bt i really hope both of them be with me whenever i need them...im really tired..i afraid i cannot gone through it......I must tell myself i hav to...

Life in UCSI

So fast,i already study at UCSI 4 1 week.Well,my biotech class only got 3 gals n 1 boy.Life at there is ok,not so crowded and the teachers r nice.The only thing that make me feel dizzy is the subjects dat i study.I study general bio and intro 2 biotech 4 dis 2 mths semester.I really duno wat the lecturers r talking abt.I once r top student in school nw i will become the last student liao...uwahhhh.....

I oso have made friends with my classmate,mayb we still duno each other well,bt i hope time can make us become good friends and i can hav more friends.Im so bsy lately,teaching tuition,study and doing assignment.But i think it is more meaningful then after my operation.

Ok la,ned to do my assignment.........Ohya,1 more thing,last nite i chat with 007,n he really make me feel much relax.THx 007............

Happy Birhtday !!!!!!!!!!

2day is my birthday.Im old lo,18 years old..he he...oredi grown up,but just my age la,my thinking still nt so mature la...he he...Anyway,im happy wit myself nw,so no ned to change much just bcoz of my age.

This morning i went 2 UCSI college.We had orientation around 9am n finished around 10am.My biotech class got 3 person n all r girls.Actually there r 4,another 1 is a guy,but thrn he said he dun wan study anymore.He is from Swimburne n has finished his foundation course.He wan 2 study biotech so change to UCSI.But after listen 2 wat The principle said,he decided 2 go back to Swinburne n finished his degree.After the orientation,we got talk 4 about an hour,he seem odd 4 me...well,i still nt familiar in there,so feel all of them r weird.

Just nw,my dad bought me a mango cheese cake,mee,chicken n veg 2 celebrate my birthday wit my own family.My birthday wish is 2 get rich $$$$$..ha ha....ok,nw is my new start...4om 2mrw onwards,i will b goin 2 start my lesson,but my leg make me feel im diff from my collegemate.2day,i feel pain when i walk,i cant even step on it....haizzz....

A new life

2nite my dad and all my aunt celebrated birthday wit me at BDC (皇上皇〕。Well,i celebrate it early bcoz everyone is free tonite and 2mrw i will b going 2 sch.My 1st day to UCSI.
Well,im going 2 make a brief summary before my real birthday and my new life begin.

Mon (7/7)
Well,as normal,i watched tv,online,playing games n chatting.Ah meow still wit me dat time,so i played wit him.Until dat nite,Ah bui came 2 bring me 2 Intelligent Tuition Centre to met Janet as she wan giv me thing to prepare 4 my tuition class.

Tues(8/7)
No ned to mention those normal routines la,everyday is the same.At night i went to Intelligent to start my 1st class of teaching english. Maybe im new,so the students dun dare to be naughty.There are 3 of them-2boys,1 gals and 1 absent.I knw they r vry naughty n noisy by their look,just they afraid to show it since they nt familiar to me.Maybe few days later,they will show me their 'real face'.And 2day oso ah meow has left me when ah bui bring me to Tuition centre,he took it away.I so sad.

Wed(9/7)
Still the same,as usual.Days time usually is the same 4 me everyday.At night if im not watching tv or online,then im teaching my cousin tuition Mandarin.So,i taught him 4 abt 2 hours,i really tired to teach sometimes,but it is my dream 2b a teacher-tuition teacher.2day i still mis my ah meow a lot.

Thurs(10/7)
Times really past very quickly,when i online n play games,i never knw how much time has run away.After play game,i giv tuition 2 a kindy 3 gal,she is nt so clever,so nt easy to teach.i really angry wit her sometimes till i pull her ear gently.But still not effect 4 her.She is quite slow in learning.Then i went out 2 hav a drink wit Jonathon-my tuitionmate.He bring me there n home.We had our drink at Kaya n Toast.Well,he is quite a nice guy,im glad 2 hav a friend lik him.I hope 2 hav more dis kind of friends.I never 4get abt my ah meow.

Fri (11/7)
Nting special,still dull n same.At night i dun giv tuition bcoz my cousin change it to Sunday since he is having his exam on Monday.So,i just watched tv n online.

Sat(12/7)
I woke up early in the morning and start to play game again.Until about 12 something i giv myself sometime to relax b4 my kindy 3 gal come 4 tuition.Then i watched smallville.Then,i went out.I didi went to satok sugarbun to eat spaggeti.So full....

Ok,and then 2day,bla bla bla...oredi mention...n nw is my time to sleep since 2mrw ned to sch liao..rest 4 so long,finally returned 2 sch....So lazy...Nighty nighty...

Just write for fun

Tonight i dunno wat 2 write in my blog,but i feel wan to write something.Only got 2 days left before my birthday and oso my school day.This is really a long holiday for me,n a lot of things happen during my long long holidays.All sweet,sour,bitter n spicy taste memories happen during dis holidays.

Starting after my SPM,1st time i went to work,1st time 2 realise my dream as a teacher,1st time went to Sabah,1st time went for xray n doing MRI,1st time went for operation,1st time use wheelchair,learn how to walk,1st time learn driving and pass my lisence test,n oso quarrel wit my family 4 a few times,break up wit bf and 1st time talk 2 my family abt my problems.

Well,everything got it 1st time,but i hope some of the event will only happen for one time bcoz 1 time is oredi enough 4 me..hope some of it will ne the 1st n last time dat i face....

Fear....Scare.....Confused....Sad

My Ah Meow has gone.My ex has taken it.I really mis him very much dat i will cry over it.Well,maybe it sound funny to cry over a cat,but i really sayang it,dats y i will feel sad and tak sanggup tinggalkan dia.but wat 2 do,he hav to go.

My ex and i always 纠缠不清,i really hope it will be over,but then now ah meow is wit him,i think is hard for me to clear our relationship.Haiz...Hope time can change everything.I dun wan ppl misundstand dat we still couple,dats all.

Dat day i went to consult the doc again and he said dat i can do most of the things dat normal ppl can do.I just cannot carry heavy load,run,jump or any sport activities.I feel glad to hear it.But today,i feel the pain on my angkle when walk or move it.I really scared because yest i wan to prevent my grandma from falling down so i went to suuport her n put too much effor on my leg.I really scared.i dun dare to let my family know abt it.

My other leg too got prob since early.I got tel my family once.but then maybe they hav forgotten.Nw i too scared to face it after my operation.I dun dare to remind my family again.I scared to c the doc again.I dun wan to hear any more bad news abt my leg again.I dun wan to bcome cacat.The feeling is too horrible.

Since small,i hav a weak body,i really duno hw to cont my life if i ned to face illness for the rest of my life..............

First Night

Yesterday night was my first night go into my bedroom to sleep after my operation.It is already about 5 months i sleep in the living room,i really dun get used to it when go upstair.I look into my bedroom n the surrounding,i dun really feel familiar wit it,duno y.

I lie on my bed n start thinking of my Kitten dat will leave me.I feel sad....WELL,im just too sentimental and sensitive...But,i really x sanggup tinggalkan anak kucing tu.Haiz,wat to do..It is too noisy and naughty.My mum always complain.

After dat,i think of my bro.Because i know dat when i face a situation like dis,he sure can calm me down.But,now he no longer help me get out of this.I hav to face it myself.Haiz....well,i guess dats all i wan to say,nw i gonna c my Ah Meow.................

Hard to Say GooDbYe

Yesterday i saw dat guy again at Tun Jugah.Well,i duno who he is,but he seem familiar to me.He is indeed my Schoolmate, i think.The first time i saw him was at Sarawak Plaza,he was having a drink wit his friends,i suppose.Then,the second time i saw him was on the busy street near BDC.My dad drove through there and i accidentally saw him walking with his friends,if im not mistaken.I duno it is a coincidence or wat.I just know dat i never met a guy for many times in just a short period of time.Even my friends i never met them.well,lets forget about it,2day my topics is about a new comer-a KITTEN.

Last week,a black n white kitten came to my house.Since,it is small,no mother with it and hide in my backyard,so we kept it.It likes to meow,probably finding his mum or when he hungry,so i called it 'AH MEOW'.It is so cute,naughty and playful.It will climb tree,play ball,and chase insects.The ways he act really attract me and i like it so much especially when he run here n there.

Ah meow is very clean oso.He know where to go when he needs to go'toilet'.I still remember when he first come,he so afraid of us,when he saw us,he will run into his hiding place.Nw,my grandpa so sayang it,n me too.We give him eat 4 times a day,bath once a week,n play with it.He oso no longer afraid of us.N always tried to sneak into my house.He is sooooooooooooooo CUTE that i like it soooooooooooooooo MUCh.But,my mum dun like it because my nose is sensitive wit fur,and she afraid the cat's fur will fly everywhere in the house.So,wat to do,giv to ppl lo.

I plan to giv to my ex.Well,i dun trust he will take good care of it.But,that is the only choice i got.At least i can know Ah meow 's condition and ensure that it got freedom.If giv to my relativ,sur he will be locked and oso wit dogs around.If throw it sumwhere else,i afraid he will be torture and cant eat or sleep well or maybe being bully by other cats.Haiz,i really duno who can take good care of it.I know my ex wont,i dun trust him after all,but wat to do.I really worry about my kitten if i giv to him.I oso dun wan to separate wit my kitten.Haiz...............I cant say goodbye to it.I goona mis him so much.Oh..my'ah meow'...i wan spend time wit it before it gone..........i sure will mis his voice..meow meow meow.......